Stop being such a fool

Sometimes lord, i think i am a fool....jus recover from my past hurts ....and i am falling into it again....terrible .....how could i make myself like that .....well the person is .....someone in cell, and the terrible thing is i cannot touch him....he got a gf already .....and lord i am jus being someone who is a fool.....sometimes when i think of it i think i should apply divine guidance and that is decision of discipline .....lord help me ok....