The Last Blog Here

Dear lord,

This is my last blog here.....today i cried again for Quincey ....and get an mc from polyclinic .....decided that enough is enough .....called him up in Perth .....and realised that his wife is named Julie .....and the real fact set in......no more tears .....what ever should be done had already been done .....one of the reasons why i am closing down this blog ......as in never to blog here ....cos i dun want to continue my blogging about a man , who is never meant for me .....and although how deeply i loved him....i know i have a God .....who gives and takes away....and i know i will continue to live with joy ......a very very strange feeling .....but guess i finally understand .....that whatever that never meant to be will never meant to be .....hope is never too late .....k starting a new blog.....God, thank you for this season of my life ......

Sincerely

Sally (Geok Mui)

Hi hi....dearest God

Dear Lord,
Thank you for today ....no big mood swing .....enjoy teaching the students english....i hope in my teaching of them ....they would come to know you better.....Btw one of the aunties who frequent our center is down with dengue ....and now she is well ....and well, my boss wanted to help her and intend to carry up rituals at home.....lord knowing all these that goes on in the surrounding i live in, how can i by my devotion to you shows that other religions, no matter in what forms .....will not be greater than You.....lord in knowing You till now ....how could i displayed the confidence that i found in You.....but lord , you know my struggles.....so how can i live a victorious life with you.....but lord, i want to continue to give thanks ....becos in all these, i feel your presence with me .....carry me through ......and yes i am madly in love you.....is you who create me in the first place, you know me when i am in my mother's womb .....you know my father and mother, and you chose me to be born to them, to let them know your great love.....guess i want to pray for more wisdom in talking to people about your goodness, lord lead me, as you filled my life with blessedness .....i know i can't live a day without your holiness in me ....help me to trust you for my future where i know, is not me that matters but that of your son Jesus Christ .....preaching and teaching His ways to the people.....living life sole purpose for you, no matter what is the season of my life .....for the reason of the season is found in the living of conforming to the image of Your son.....Amen!

Simply yours
Geok Mui (Sally)

Break Soul ties with Quincey

Dear Lord,
You know I had called Eebin to pray for me ....and re-commited my life to you ....whatever dreams or goals in life is not important as i continued to grow and be transformed by Chirst love have for us .....yes Quincey maybe very important to you....and being so important to you....you know you can't hold him in your mind anymore because you got to be fair to his wife .....maybe, just maybe that in the last life, i had a relationship with him....that is why now i have been so affected ....so i had to cut the soul tie .....btw i hope i won't love another anyhow too....just know that i want to live my life fully for Christ now .....lord i hope ....and because i had make a decision ....i should not have Quincey in my thots anymore .....no more .....enough is enough ....you know that he is not going to come back for you .....and is a truth that you got to accept .....he is happily married so bless him, dear.....and because you have bless him.....you know you will be blessed too.....Geok Mui, Sally ....whoever you are .....you need to let yourself be released of this bondage .....as you know pretty well that you will still live in joy because of the love of God , of Jesus in you, and you know pretty well ....you will continue to love .....and be loved .....now this three remain, faith ,hope and love .......our faith is in Jesus Chirst, our hope is in God Almighty and our love is in our heavenly Father who makes all things possible.....Amen!

Live by Faith - Not by Fact nor Feeling

Dear lord,
a lot ....alot of thots dun know how to figure it out ....to put into words ....but sometimes love is slient.....faith is slient ....being still ......lord i dun know why, thought that my tears had stop ....but why is it coming back.....yes, about Quincey....a person who should died in my heart .....he make his choice .....God why must i keep thinking, thinking won't change things, won't change his decision, let go .....give him have the freedom.....my will to live is gone....but i can't because there is my parents, family and i am going to purchase a flat .....Geok Mui....this isn't worth it ....but this is love , this is grace .....Geok Mui be the sally that you know .....ok....but lord this Sally is the one with Quincey ....a star who becomes a angel ....you wrote your own story .....but lord ....i dun know it will turn up that .....he dun love me at all...not even a bit ....be strong girl ....you have your loved ones , you have a job ....be thankful for all these ,be faithful to the small things then you know you need to do now ....take a step at a time ok??Be happy for Quincey, time will heal the wounds ya .....guess he don't want to see you sad too....guess his love for you is not that of a lover .....lord help me to stop crying ....i am at office leh ....and there is a guy opposite me .....do you want to lose your Job??And go through the terrible times again.....buck up Geok Mui .....Sally without man you can live too ....as christ is preached ....that is most important ......carry on ya!