Letting Go ....wasn't that diffcult afterall

Dear God,
After all the stuggles that i face ....i cried, i prayed, i bargained .....everything that i can possibly do ....i had done .....and i know and i know that i could not run away from the fact that Quincey is getting married ......sometimes we just had to pluck up all our courage to face something that we dreaded to face.....and sometimes when you think is impossible ....God make it possible for you ,right God ??
Well, i dun want if i could choose, to believe that Quincey is getting married.....but fact is that he had never called me .....nor want to keep me in contact .....the obvious fact .....that he does not have feelings for me,for all these years is a clear sign .....why must i lie to myself ....and keep finding hope from the bible to believe a untrue fact, this does not mean i am having faith , is jus denying the truth......i know that a part of me is behaving that way and another part of me is claiming isaiah 61:1-2 , knowing well that God will come to heal my broken heart and make me whole .....sometimes is not what you wants that matters , but how god is using your life for his glory that matters ....and for this i know that i must be strong .....and accept the fact that Quincey is going to be happily married and i should pray for his marriage ......his wife must be of good substance .....holy, pure , gentle , wise etc.....i know Quincey is a choosy man, he won't settle for someone who is not up to his standard .....maybe is God's standard for him.....
As for me .....haha.....the silly me who keeps writing nonsense not able to produce something of substance ......but i know God ,you, see me as a beautiful vessel of your love who knows and loves you .....and yes, although how diffcult it will be in the future i know and i know i have you ,God , whose hand i stubbonly cling on .....to know that letting go and letting God wasn't as diffcult as it suppose to be.....Lord bless me !